im sorry....

i realise im sometimes really insensitive when i voice out to ppl that i feel are insensitive to me... and apparently that juz made me feel worse everytime cuz i only realise i wld be hurting others too which i do not want to at all.... i did it again today and i wished i cld turn back time... turn it back so it was never heard....
im sooo sry.... i doubt my apology wld work anyway but i pray it wld...
im juz a coward who fears to fail, who fears of all the what ifs that may happen...
i pray for forgiveness... all i can do now is pray...

That's all...

Am i too sensitive?

whoo.. to had a short day in camp till 9.30 resting in bunk cuz of duty overnight, then had cohesion at this place called H.I.G.H which apparently is a LAN gaming place which has a bar as well and its pretty classy too. had a good 3 hrs session and i took off home...

then i was called to go out have lunch and shop, and while almost decided on where to go and meet suddenly it came to a decision to not go instead>.< i dunno if im being too sensitive or not but that juz felt like it was juz a joke... like some april fool's joke... i really dunno wad to say bout it and im really tired of tinking bout tis issue now so thats all i'll say, probably nothing i can do to ever avoid such stuff anyway, juz hope it nvr happens again... i only hope nobody ever do tis kinda stuff again cuz im probably too sensitive to handle such a situation again...

...That's all....

where am i headed??

its been awhile since i last blogged, better do now before i completely become lazy to blog again,

well tis week was a fairly easy week to handle:
Mon
went on course supposedly for the whole day but ended at noon so i had the whole afternoon till 7.30 which was great:D

Tue
Went for medical appointment in the morn till 1.30pm and slacked in office till 5 and went to bunk and slp:)

Today
Went on course again and yup the same thing happened:D so im home now relaxing and blogging, well the bonus for today is that it juz so happens my company has a nights out today so my book in timing automatic extended to 10p.m :D so i get a few more hrs off haha which covers today:) tmr will be quite relax since the big boss is not ard and so is fri which hopefully can book out at noon and end tis week faster^.^

Emo notes:
well happy as i shld be, somehow i cant seem to be truly happy cuz it juz feels like im still lost, waiting for someone to find me and bring me out. i have been feeling like im leaving in a shell that acts on its own, while i am unable to express anything...
tis few mths i have nvr been able to really focus on wad im doin in church, i feel aimless even my shell speaks of goals and aims. somehow i cant seem to focus on it at all... i need someone to save me out of tis little shell and wake me to my senses...

That's all.