today's really boring, all i did was sleep till like 9plus a.m and just play wii and use msn till like 4 and headed to where i am now>.< in camp... to do my duty....
today i cant seem to figure what im doing for the past few weeks... lots of my actions i do not have reasons for and have been wondering why i did that and am i on the right path??
i need a hug..... i need someone to hold me and take me seriously for what im doing....
i dunno if im slowly recovering frm the hurt cuz it seems like im slowly being sucked into vacuum
a place of nothingness
numbing my senses slowly
making everything seem unreal
will i find a way out?
i wish i dun have to wait for time to tell
on another point, i realise ppl tend to see things they dun wanna see, like somehow u become really sensitive to it and end up noticing this things that u refuse to see so much more easily.
i hate it when i see them everywhere>.< its like trying to remind me even after i tried so hard to forget...
i tink in my heart im still pretty pissed at some ppl whom i trusted so much to have cheated me like that, but maybe becuz i did not show that i noe, it seems like it can go overboard... constantly taunting me to reveal stuff, tot of it makes me sick...
oh well i guess thats todays thoughts... am i backsliding?
hmmm i hope i can forgive ppl but some are juz too hard to? they never learn.
Thats all.
About Me
- benben
- im alittle blur at times and i kinda fidget ard if i stay still too long, tend to only really compete when there is a challenge. hmmm likes brownies alot... and i mean ALOT... period.