hmmm... tired.... sick of being used, sick of being helpful, sick of being there all the time... only makes me feel more used cuz i dun get repaid, but shld i be expecting any? probably not, thats why its so hard to do it...
prob is i made it a habit to do so and end up hating myself for being used for all tis stupid reasons...
juz did stupid pre-audit work for 2 whole weeks like a dog>.< and u feel like no one cares except the few ppl whom r actually doing work wif u, which i only noe is one other guy... everyone else will juz tell u they had it worse or "ur a clerk la plz" like its not tough wadeva blah blah blah... yea im not combat fit so what?
cant even have the right to express stress?
come out i juz meet friends a short while, get to noe some stuff laugh ard abit, still im kinda upset cuz i have to pretend at times that im not irritated wif him cuz he doesnt give a damn bout how i think.... if it continues like tis too long i will prob end up giving up being friends cuz im alr having enuf probs and do not need my close friend to be my prob like that...
now im quite moodless cuz i juz had a change in plans.... cant blame anyone juz that i seriously hate last min change of plans... no offense to anyone who change plans last min, i juz feel sometimes like if plans to go out can juz be cancelled like that does it mean that it isnt something to look forward to?
well that is my view of things so i cant expect everyone to accept the idea...
well going back camp soon so alittle thing to look forward to is im booking out on wed so it will be a short week tis week, and im still moodless so cant tink of anything else to say...
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About Me
- benben
- im alittle blur at times and i kinda fidget ard if i stay still too long, tend to only really compete when there is a challenge. hmmm likes brownies alot... and i mean ALOT... period.